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been hella depressed lately

the past few weeks/months have been utter shit. my grandma is back home from the senior home where she was for rehabilitation from her heart attack. it is a relief that she seems to be just fine rn and i'm extremely happy that that situation played out as well as it could've. the biggest problem i've been having lately has still been familial. for some reason, no matter what i do, it's never enough for my family. i've been struggling with this idea forever, and even when this summer came around and i've been having to drive my grandpa around a fuckton and helped my grandma out too, no one thinks what i'm doing is enough. they act like my life needs to revolve around their needs but i still have a social life of my own to take care of alongside a job that i need to work in. they act like since i'm at home for the most part i don't work but in reality i work quite a bit and the work i'm doing is fairly important for the company i'm at. there...

beginning a new blog since tumblr boned my last one

well here's the first blog post i'm making on blogger since tumblr decided my blog was too nsfw to be allowed on their website! ive been having a rough time lately and i can't really put my finger on exactly why. ive been trying hard to figure out why but it's all just been shitty lately. no luck on dating apps, the only girl who seems interested in me lives in spain and i'm not down for another online relationship and neither is she which is fine because fuck those. anyways i guess i'll go into why i think my life has been trash lately. first and foremost, both of my grandparents are in absolutely rough spots. my grandma had hip surgery and she's been out of commission for a few weeks now but it's been fine and i don't mind helping around the house a bit when i can. my grandpa is stubborn as hell and even though he's not really in the best of shapes he still tries to do everything he was doing a year ago. he can't walk right and his stamina ...